By Tina Kramer
Oct 2024
Memory 1974?
We are in the woods. I am hungry. Dad is not with us. I don’t know where I am. I see a tree with green apples and ask mom if I may eat one. She says no because they will make me sick. I obey my mom and don’t eat the green apple.
Memories are slippery things, like trying to catch a fish with your hands. The memories of my time of abduction are few and random. Surprisingly, God has been adding new memories from my past. Songs I haven’t sung in decades return out of nowhere. Toys I played with from my childhood come back to mind. Is this part of the healing process?
Last week I shared with you a memory about being in an abandoned building with my mom- Deja Vu. As I thought about this event, I read a devotional from the Daily Bread which was based on Psalm 107. While reading this chapter, verse 5 jumped out from the page:
“They were hungry and thirsty, and their lives ebbed away.”
God spoke to my heart through this verse. When I was in that building with my mom, I was hungry and thirsty. I was starving, but God protected me. Even when my mother was confused and fearful, God was in that cold, dark building watching out for us.
Perhaps you also had a traumatic childhood. Maybe you had a parent who was mentally ill. Do you wonder sometimes where God was during your pain?
I don’t know what your journey of healing will look like, but I do know that God will surprise you. Your healing process will be unique, just like your story.
The first step to healing is to admit you are hurting and need help. Ask God to guide you to a trustworthy person to assist you on the path to wholeness.
Prayer
Hello Heavenly Father,
We don’t understand why we endured so much suffering, but we choose to trust you through the healing process. Thank you for Your presence with us in the dark, cold places of our past. You hold our broken hearts and gently massage them with loving hands. Your tenderness melts the layers of calcification which once prevented us from dealing with the pain. Years of pretending give way to walking with a new perspective and a peace that surpasses understanding.
In Jesus’ name,
Amen
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Top photo by Tina at the Hans Herr House in Lancaster, PA
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